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Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Belief – not only what but who!

Belief is the underestimated power of achievement.

Beliefs are the building blocks of the mind. Our beliefs determine our thoughts and attitudes about life, which in turn direct our actions and achievements. By our beliefs we create our actions and finally our destiny.

Belief is an incredibly powerful state of mind. Your belief system not only defines and shapes who you are, but it also determines your potential.

Science, strictly speaking, deals only with observable phenomena. Anything that cannot be observed (either directly or indirectly) is, by definition, not a subject of scientific investigation. Scientists look for patterns among observations, which give rise to hypotheses to be tested against further observations. If a hypothesis passes these tests, it is then called a scientific theory. Yet, so many achievers in life got where they are simply because they strongly believed in themselves, their ability to reach a goal, and the fact that whatever they are wishing for is achievable and not just wishful thinking.

While you may not always get what you want, you will always get what you expect! Surprisingly, the power of belief and expectation work just as effectively on your feelings of self-doubt and limitation as they do on your thoughts of success and achievement. Think thoughts of defeat or failure and you are bound to be discouraged. Ever experienced that? The power of positive thinking is quite incredible. It is there for everyone to enjoy, yet few of us make use of it.

Belief is essentially a subjective feeling about the validity of an idea or set of facts. It is more than a mere suspicion and less than concrete knowledge. Unlike suspicion, which is based primarily on inner personal conviction, belief is founded upon assurance gained by empirical evidence and from other people. Positive knowledge, as contrasted with belief, is the clear perception of existing facts.

Want to achieve? Let your motto in life be: Creation ex nihilo (Latin for ‘Out of nothing, something’). To believe is to have the power to create. If there is something which you wish to achieve, the first step has to be belief.

Always remember this: Whether you think you can or think you can't - you are always right! Now go and create a life…

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

During School and After School… A letter to the people who used to know me…

During the time that I was still at school, I attended 2 primary schools and 4 high schools;

Mtubatuba Primary in Kwazulu Natal
Laerskool Phalaborwa Noord in the Northern Province, or rather Limpopo
Hoerskool Benvorster in Tzaneen
Bryanston High in Johannesburg
Hoerskool Frans Dutoit in Phalaborwa
And then finally matriculated from Hoerskool Montana in Pretoria

My school years were not pleasant years, quite honestly I hated school and never look back.
This is sad,  because as a youngster these are the years you should be enjoying, taking every moment in and just enjoying the freedom of having no responsibilities and almost having no care in the world.

If I think back to some of the ‘kids’ I went to school with, most of them probably would not remember me, to them I was not there…
I did not excel at sports, although I tried everything. I did not excel at academics, but I was a hard worker and at times it felt as if I were out of place, even though I was a friendly guy.

I was skinny, very white, out of proportion and was certainly not the most attractive guy at school. I was shy, would always follow the rules and always had my homework done.

At two of the schools I attended I was teased for being gay, I must have shown some signs of being gay, dunno what these are but maybe it was because I felt more comfortable talking to girls. The teasing experiences certainly stuck in my head and have certainly contributed to who I am today.

The teasing made me strive for better, I wanted to look better, I wanted to excel at what I did, I wanted to be THAT guy.
I would admire guys who were attractive, I would admire guys with good bodies, I wanted to be like them…
I would envy people who had lots of friends and I would envy people who were outspoken…
I pictured myself with the qualities of these people and dreamed of being like them…

I wanted to prove all those who thought what they thought of me WRONG…

Yes, today I am a gay male living in South Africa, what my old school friends think of that I certainly do not care, I lost a lot of them when I came out just after school while I was still NOT THAT GUY.
BUT, today I am a PROUD GAY MALE SOUTH AFRICAN and certainly not ashamed of my past as a kid, I knew I was gay from the start, but too scared to come out because of my school years, because of the way we HAD to be…
I am a healthy, fit guy with a loving family, with friends who like me and don’t tease me and I live each day with motivation and determination to reach my dreams and goals.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Fake Facebook Profiles…

One thing that annoys me is fake facebook profiles, People making contact with others and leading them on. I truly believe that there is a very large percentage of profiles on Face book which are fake, and are used by impersonators.

To those impersonating others and actually running with it, why go so low? Why not be yourself?

Looking forward to this weekend, flying to JHB this evening for the Mr. and Miss Legends crowning and then will be jamming to DJ Guyver tomorrow evening here in Durban.

Hope you all have an awesome weekend!

Take it easy : -)

Thursday, September 24, 2009

My mini weekend...

So there I go and say that I am going to have a relaxed chilled mini weekend. Yeah rite! Now I find myself with a huge hangover and having to get myself together to train later on...
The things we do to ourselves...

It was a good evening though. Started out at Blue Taboo, a salon which hosted a cocktails party, sadly we got there a little late, everyone was already way ahead of us, funny to watch though... Got persuaded into going to the Lounge, and off we went...
With R50 all you can drink, I mean, what more can I say...

Ran into some friends, some people I have not seen in ages! Was good seeing them all again...
Eugene prancing around as usual...
And Jared dancing to commercial, classic! :-)

And here I sit this morning at Traxx with my hangover, they are busy setting up for Saturday evening, which is going to be awesome, we have Guyver coming to DJ.

Think I need to get back into bed!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009


Yesterday evening I had a mild evening at the gym, I was not able to push myself too hard because of my hand and I was not able to train triceps, so I stuck with Chest and Jared went on to train Triceps. We got home after gym, sat down for dinner and got ready for bed, and boy was I ready for bed! We are use to our early nights where we are usually in bed by 9pm, but this is proving more difficult now because of Jared working late and us only getting to the gym after 7pm.

I fell asleep quite easily, but had the strangest dream, and so real… it actually felt like it had happened before. It was a nightmare and I woke up at the end of the dream, you know, when the worst part is about to happen, and I was out of breath. I had Jared by my side consoling me.

The dream disrupted my sleep for the rest of the early morning hours which was not ideal, I went back into a light sleep and got up for work just after 6am.

It is raining here today, lovely cold weather, but, I still look forward to those hot summer days… You know how much I love the beach.

Tomorrow is also a public holiday here, National heritage day, or Braai day. So it is like a mini Friday today. This evening we are going for cocktails at Blue Taboo, a lovely Salon here in Durban North and tomorrow we are just going to chill out, gym and take it easy.

Oh yeah! I get to see the photos from Saturdays shoot tomorrow! : -)

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

The Durban life…

In 2007 I made my move, from the busy and sometimes quite stressful Johannesburg to the more relaxed and a little less stressful Durban. Leaving behind family, friends and a job. My modeling career was also about to start taking off, not necessarily at the speed that I would have liked it to start taking off though, but I still had a lot to learn.

I arrived in Durban with a feeling of relief, not really too concerned about what I had left behind, I would be back to visit. I had a feeling that things were going to be just fine… I had always said to my mom that I was going to live by the sea again and here I was!

Soon after moving to Durban I landed a job which I have stuck to since arriving, our offices look out over the ocean and we have the most beautiful view. Now living and working where I use to visit with my parents for holidays, it has become quite a lifestyle, the relaxed and less stressed life of Durban.

Living in Durban has not always been without stress though, I have had my moments… We have moved a few times, I have had ups and downs with my job and modeling here has proven quite difficult as the industry is very small, however, spending time on the beach on the weekends and living it up with the new friends I have made helps relieve the stresses built up.

The nightlife is a lot different to Johannesburg and Pretoria, and it took a while to get use to it. It is changing though, and there is a little bit more of a buzz happening now. We have more clubs opening and more events being held.

During holiday season, Durban is really one of the best places to be.

Anyhow, I am loving it here, I miss JHB but certainly do not miss the traffic!

Monday, September 21, 2009


I am no expert at relationships and love, but I have learnt a lot. And most people probably know this or have heard something similar to this, but I thought I would share my thoughts.

Relationships need work, constant work. It is a never ending cycle of ups and downs, and WORK.
The love which exists between two people can just not be enough; however, the love is like glue which is used when keeping a relationship together when you are doing the work.

If you love someone, and I mean truly love someone, no matter how bad the fight is, how loud the screaming gets or how far your partner drives you, if that glue which you have been working on is strong enough, it will hold you together.

One does need to be careful though because when those arguments come up and when there are disagreements then there are things which can break the glue down, which makes it weaker, things such as a simple sentence, an action or ignorance. Words can cause the deepest cuts in a relationship, it can break that glue called love down. Actions such as raising your hands to your partner or inflicting pain upon yourself can wipe the glue away. And when nothing is done and all is ignored, it simply eats the glue away.

When the words: “I love you...”are used, they should be used with the deepest meaning, it should be unconditional love. No matter what, you should love that person unconditionally and you should constantly be working on that glue which keeps the relationship together.

Friday, September 18, 2009


In South Africa I have come to realize that a lot of people celebrate Puza Thursday, I was totally oblivious to this and always just thought that people called it Puza Thursday for the fun of it…

Puza Thursday is a term to describe Thursday; as in just passed the half way mark for the week, a day before the weekend starts and to celebrate it in true Puza style and drink! The ladies and sometimes guys who do this well are sometimes referred to as The Puza Queens!

In my mind the party responsible for starting Puza Thursday is our local radio station, 5FM presented by Gareth Cliff who I am sure has something to do with it all!

Anyway, so yesterday evening, being Puza Thursday Jared and I stopped by a salon in Durban North before heading to a new gym we were going to try out and to my amazement the salon was still going at 8pm and they were celebrating Puza Thursday properly! I still thought to myself: “Now that is the spirit!”. I do not know if I would want to be in the hot seat on a Thursday evening though… hm, but, they still pulled off some great styling!

We headed to the La Lucia Gym, it was already quite late, actually and hour before they were closing. The gym was empty and we could fly thru our sets without interruption, I also had a chance to hop onto the internet stations and go thru a couple of face book messages after our workout.

One thing that I am sure to try out at this gym is the Spa, it looks like they have a lot to offer… Hmmm, Massage here I come.

On our way home, Jared and I were chatting and he was not too focused on the road, he skipped some traffic lights which were out, then was so startled by that that he stopped at the green lights and when they turned red he decided to go and then the next set directly afterwards were red and he skipped those too! I was in hysterics! This is not the first time that this has happened though, just a while ago he stopped at a stop street and waited for a green light!

Jared always says that he writes the silly things I say and the words I come up with which have no meaning or make no sense in a book, well this is certainly something to add to mine!

Thursday, September 17, 2009


Chances of me flying to Johannesburg for the crowning of Mr and Miss legends on the 25th are pretty good, and this is something to get excited about… I have not been there for a while now and it will be awesome to see every one again.
Unfortunately the trip will be short spent as I cannot get off work on the Friday, and I need to be back in Durban on the Saturday for another event!

Argh! It is still raining here and I am starting to think that me wanting the beach so desperately has something to do with it! You know, Murphy’s law… I am actually contemplating going to the beach after work today no matter what the weather is like, but, that would just be stupid as I would probably end up with the flu which would not be good for the shoot on Saturday… *Ty Reconsiders*

My mom sends me the cutest video of my new born baby brother, check this out:

I have only seen him once since his birth. He is adorable, I certainly am going to make an effort to visit them sometime! SOON! I miss my family, my mom and sister and dad live in Struisbaai, which is quite a while from me, so it makes it difficult to see them. My sister is the cutest little girl too, she will grow up to be a stunner!

Looking forward to the gym tonight, we are trying out a new one this evening, hopefully it is not as busy as our current gym, it is not nice having to wait for equipment. One day we will have a gym at home…

*And Ty dreams on*

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Wednesday evening

Argh! It is Wednesday evening! Just passed the half way mark for the week and now yet another awesome weekend awaits us!
Will be chilling this Friday evening, hopefully with a glass of wine and a DVD at home, I have to be up early for the shoot on Saturday morning, that is going to be a blast.
Will probably rise at about 7h00am, need to be at the salon at 8h30 and then we will probably be on location to shoot at 10am.
We are shooting with some of Roger Saints designs! Very amped and love his clothes.

Anyhow, for the rest of Saturday we will probably head off and hang at a mates house. I am keen on hitting the beach again, as usual, catching up on my tan...

Sunday we will probably spend the day with family.

Now, although I have all of this planned out in my head, it probably won't happen like this... it is just expected. At least I am prepared for my weekend not to run according to plan.

So, let me get back to the rest of this week, two more working days to go and then it is just relax!

My training…

Sadly I never use to have a good body and had to work hard to getting it to look like this. Until I left school, I was quite a light weight myself. If only there was some magic potion one could drink to get yourself to the ideal weight you want to be with all the lines and striations in the right places.

I have always been very active and use to do athletics and swimming at school which contributed to keeping the weight off me, which was not ideal, as I almost weighed nothing. While in high school I use to gym but never took it that seriously and I actually had no idea what I was doing.

I would find myself online surfing the sites and seeing beautiful men, with amazing bodies, and I would envy them, I wished I looked like them, and this envy never ends… still today I will see a guy with an amazing body and think: ‘Geese, I wish I had that bod’.

I have been told that I have genes to thank and my fast metabolism at school for my body today. Also, keep in mind that I am still not 100% happy with my body and it is still work in progress. But so far, in just over a year my body has changed a lot! People who knew me before moving to Durban can vouch for that too.

I have put on healthy weight, I look healthier and am maintaining it all and it is all thanx to eating and training properly! And my boyfriend who really pushes me in the gym!

Now that I am taking things seriously I follow a diet which works for me as my aim is to put on weight and maintain the weight as good quality muscle. I have gone from 68kg to 74kg, I could be doing a lot better but because of the busy life style sometimes my training suffers.

I follow a weight training program which is quite flexible. We will do something like focus on doing lots of reps for the one week and then the following week doing low reps and heavier weights.

Day 1: Legs
Day 1: Chest and Triceps
Day 2: Back
Day 3: Shoulders and Biceps

Then I try and fit in abs 3 times a week.

I am not a fan of cardio, and I think with my active lifestyle and dancing on weekends it pretty much covers my cardio. lol

I eat loads of Carbs, healthy carbs and proteins. I also drink shakes to help as well.

Lots of people ask me for advice, I suggest you research places like Body for life, you need to do training and eat to suit your own needs. Our training constantly changes, and so should yours, challenge yourself.

Also, I realize I am only 21, and my body is very different to a 25 year olds, 25 year old guys who train and maintain a good body have much more mature muscle, which in my eyes is HOT.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

The Make Over Shoot – Corrupt 2009

So, shortly after the first Corrupt shoot I was advised to cut my hair, get a new style and color it darker… hmmm, this was a scary thought for me as my long blonde hair had almost become a comfort blanket, literally! It was getting way too long.

Kevern Daye, a very well acquainted hairstylist worked his magic and created a style which I fell in love with straight away! It opened my face and my eyes were more visible which I am told is one of my main assets and I also gained some more self confidence!

A shoot was dedicated to the makeover which was published in the latest issue of Gay Pages and made front cover.

It was an early Saturday morning, quite a cold morning and I headed to Kevern, the stylist to get my hair done, straight after that I rushed to the location.
For this shoot we were using the early morning sun, which there was not a lot of, but the cloud cover worked in our favor.

The Location: Durban’s Umhlanga beach, the one just before the nudist beach.
Photographer: Ryan Stewart
Stylist: Kevern Daye
Model: Tyrone Nell

A spot well chosen on the beach, it was quite private, not too many people were around at that time of the morning anyway, but for the odd person or couple walking their dogs I am sure it was quite a site for them.

We set up for the shoot and I changed into my first pair of underwear, I had to wrap a towel around my waist to cover up and while putting the underwear on I had to ensure that the towel would not drop. I would not mind, but I think the grandmother with her dog would.

A couple of great shots were captured on the sand, I was giving off natural poses and doing very well. I was very comfortable in my skin on this day, especially given that it was my first shoot with my new hairstyle. I was excited to see how it would come across on camera.

We eventually did a couple of shots in the waves, FREEEEZING! A models job is not always the most comfortable job… Anyhow, I managed, but we did not use any of the wave shots as the lighting was not rite, so I froze for nothing?? Moving on swiftly….

We moved a little bit more to a public area, it was the best area where we could shoot with rocks, a couple of families were around, and we had the holiday houses and flats rite behind us looking down at us and a public pathway which was a level higher than us. It was early morning still so not a lot of people were about.

I once again changed and got onto the rocks and Ryan started snapping away, once again capturing some really nice shots! Some kids started playing around us on the rocks, not in the way of the camera, but quite a distraction, eventually they were moving into harms way and before we knew it one of the kids was about to be taken out by a wave, the mother was sitting quite a distance away not knowing about all of this and it appeared as if she was not worried either. Anyway, Ty to the rescue, I grabbed the kid just in time and took him back to shore, out of harms way and asked them not to play on the rocks… I have always wanted to be a lifeguard deep down…

So carrying on with the shoot, a couple of minutes later on I look up to where the pathway is and the holiday flats which are raised above that and a whole crowed had gathered, I did not mind it at all and was kind of cool… One guy taking out his video camera.

We ended the shoot, I was in shivers by this point because of the cold weather and this started to show in the shots, so we wrapped it up for the day and called it a very successful day!